the lb sessions
My foot is broken.

That’s the last time I ever try to give Mac a piggy back ride.

hahahaaaa this is me and Mac to a t!! 

hahahaaaa this is me and Mac to a t!! 

my weekend

Not that anyone cares very much, but I like to write these things down for my own sake and memory.

Friday, got off work and went home. Painted my nails, texted Mac to see what he was up to. He said he was with Dillon and Nate and would let me know when he was free. It was about 9:30pm when he texted me, so I went over and he was already outside. I got out of the car and he said “let’s go somewhere” so we went to the park near his house and walked around for a bit. We sat on a bench and recounted our day/week to each other. We left because he was a little hungry and got some fries. Drove to the Boccelli’s parking lot and just sat and talked for a bit. It’s been quite a while since we’ve done that, it was really nice. Took him home, kissed goodnight, went to bed. 

Saturday, got ready all day and watched TV, went to the liquor store to pick some stuff up for Maggie. Mac came over around 8pm and we took his car to pick Maggie up from the airport (she works there). We then went straight to her boyfriend, Noah’s, house for a “party”. I was apprehensive because I don’t really like large groups of strangers, but it ended up being a small group of really nice people, all drinking and smoking and laughing and just having a nice night. There were MAYBE 15 people max. at one point. Mac was DD so I drank and got to know some of the people. We stayed for a couple of hours and it was just a really, really nice relaxing time. My kind of “party”, small group of calm, chill people. Mac took me home.

Sunday, woke up feeling fine. I don’t really get hungover which is AWESOME. I’m also a lightweight so there is never a lot of alcohol in me. Anyway, texted Mac to see if he wanted to meet me at Taco Bell. I showed up and he was with Dillon (the guy he lives with) and we ate. Stood outside in the sunshine for a while and talked, then went back to his house. We laid around for a few hours and then decided to go to the elementary school and play. Dillon is a little shorter than me, so we had fun, but Mac is 6’6” so it was kind of a drag for him to try and play on the structures and stuff. It was nice. Walked back and Dillon’s mom had gotten us all dilly bars which I haven’t had in AGES! Dillon and Mac got in a huge argument about capitalism which was actually interesting. Mac walked me to my car, we talked for a bit, he kissed me goodnight and then I went home.

All in all, not very eventful, but very relaxing and just pleasant overall. Can’t wait for next weekend. Payday and another “party” at Maggie’s this time. Eep. I love Mac.

musicourcollisionsmake:

Trashed.  Mac driving my car


OK, I don’t remember taking this. I just found it. That’s me, Mac is driving, that’s my best friend Maggie and Mac’s good friend/roommate Dillon. Such a damn good day.

musicourcollisionsmake:

Trashed. Mac driving my car

OK, I don’t remember taking this. I just found it. That’s me, Mac is driving, that’s my best friend Maggie and Mac’s good friend/roommate Dillon. Such a damn good day.

Birthday/4th

I will try to keep it fairly short.

7/2 Monday, I had work and got home around 5:30. Called Mac because he was supposed to come over for dinner but wasn’t responding to my texts. He forgot about it, so he headed over. We ate spaghetti carbonara which is probably my favorite food, and watched some TV while I painted my nails. He randomly decided to take me to see the midnight premier of Spider-Man. I wasn’t going to say no! He went home to shower and get ready, and I headed over at about 10:30. He also invited Dillon (the friend he lives with) and we drove a couple blocks to the theater. We stood outside for a while and then went in and found seats. Mac wished me a happy birthday at midnight and then the movie started. It was pretty fun to watch, a little cheesy, but it was enjoyable. Andrew Garfield is pretty cute. But, what can I say, I’m a sucker for a baby face! Took Dillon and Mac home, went to bed.

7/3 Woke up to several happy birthday texts, and a text from my best friend/sister Maggie asking if I was awake. It was nearly noon. Turns out that Mac didn’t wake up to go get her (he was supposed to pick her up at 11am so she could hang out with us all day - she lives in Portland). I put on a headband and sweatshirt and went to get her. On the drive back, she told me that she wanted to “wine and dine” me, so we planned for it. Went to my house, I showered and got all ready. My parents gave me a small gift - a mini-pack of the OPI Spider-man collection nail polishes. It was super cute. Maggie and I left. I picked up a 12 pack of PBR and a bottle of vodka and we went to Mac’s. There, he mixed it all with some lemonade and rasperries (yes, pink panty dropper) and poured my a glass. Keep in mind, it is 5pm at this point. I had one glass and we left for the mall. Unfortunately, I have hardly any tolerance for alcohol, so I got totally trashed off that one glass. I had eaten right before, too! I remember bits and pieces from the mall. Maggie bought me a flask at Icing and a new septum ring which she proceeded to put in my nose in the mall bathroom. I like it. We stood on top of the parking garage and basked in the sun before heading back to Mac and Dillon’s. We got back and Mac/Dillon walked up the street to get some food. Maggie and I rested on the bed for a while. They came back with energy drinks and breakfast burritos and I felt better. I drank another glass and filled my flask and nalgene. We went to the guys’ house and by this point Maggie, Dillon, and I were all feeling really good. Jon drank when we got there, and Maggie and I just talked for an hour or so while we all sat in the garage laughing and smoking till late. I had been drinking water throughout the day and food, so although I was pretty hammered, I still felt fine. We eventually left and drove Maggie home, then I stayed the night at Mac’s. Ended up having a heart to heart and I cried for a bit, just realizing that we kind of lost sight of the “friendship” aspect of a relationship and we both miss that. It was good though.

7/4 ended up only sleeping until about 10am (after going to sleep at 5am) and Mac was sitting up playing video games. We talked for a little while and I left to go change and get ready. I went back to Mac’s at 2pm and brought him some T Bell and a drink. We had been invited over to his Dad’s for a barbecue. Drove there and I realized it was just the 4 of us (Dad/girlfriend, Mac and I). It ended up being a really nice time. Mac’s Dad has had a rough time with drugs/alcohol for several years, and he was telling us about he he got an AA sponsor for the first time and was actually following the steps. It was so good to hear, and I could tell that it made Mac pretty happy and also a little more at peace. We walked to Laurelhurst park (my favorite park ever). It was such a beautiful day. We went back and sat on the couches talking/watching TV until about 8pm. It was a very nice time. We left and went to the guys’ house. We weren’t intending to stay, but the neighbors had some crazy fireworks and it was awesome. Everyone makes such a fuss about Oregon having so many restrictions in fireworks, but you can literally go anywhere and find people setting off illegal ones, and the cops really couldn’t care less.There were a good 10-12 people at the house, and they ended up pulling all of the furniture into the driveway. We sat and watched and some got really close to us. We were in such good company, it was such a fun, good night. Mac took me back to my car and I went home. 

All in all, I had a really fun couple of days and I really wouldn’t change much. Hopefully this is a sign of good things to come. Time will tell!

my weekend

Mac and I watched the whole Alien quadrilogy (Alien, Aliens, Alien 3, Alien Resurrection) which I got in a box set. We watched the first one on Friday night after he’d gotten off work. We went to sleep. The next morning, he got us breakfast burritos and we hung out with Dillon for a bit and played Castle Crashers before walking to the store for some snacks. We got back and watched Aliens and I really liked it! I went home to shower and we met back up and went to Edgefield for one of my best friend Lindsay’s 21st birthday. It was so good seeing her. Since she went to college we’ve hung out 1 or 2 times per year for the last 3 years. But she’s home all summer and I’m really excited. She’s one of those people who you can go without seeing for months, and hang out and it’s not awkward and it feels like nothing has changed between you. It was so good seeing her and spending some time with her. She wants to take me out for my 21st next week, which is awesome because I had no idea what I was going to do! We left and went to the guys’ house and hung out for a lot longer than we expected and decided not to watch another movie since it was already after 1am. Yesterday we watched both Alien 3 and Alien Resurrection right after the other. I heard they were terrible, but I am usually pretty open-minded and try not to over-analyze movies so I enjoyed them. We parted ways again while he showered and faxed his timesheet in. Then we went and saw Prometheus! I’ve heard such mixed things about it, and while there were plot holes and a lot of unanswered questions, it was a really fun to watch and very visually captivating. It could have been better, but it also could have been a lot worse. I enjoyed it, and anyone who says it has no relation to the Alien movies is wrong.. While the plots may have been different, they are DEFINITELY connected. If you don’t see it, you should probably watch Alien again. All in all, a good weekend. 

Date night :) (Taken with instagram)

Date night :) (Taken with instagram)

Eep!

Things are finally starting to come together for Mac. He’s gotten the shaft for a while now, but looks like he’s going to be able to move out and go to school for music production in the Fall. This makes me incredibly happy. I am hoping to work for another year, save a bunch, and attend Mt Hood for the cosmetology program next Fall. I really hope that works out.

This weekend

is going to be good. I don’t even know why or how, I just have a good feeling. Maybe it has something to do with the weather forecast showing sunny and 60’s. I’ve seen Mac every night this week and it’s been great. We had a very good objective talk about our relationship on Wednesday night and what we both want and how we feel and I feel like there was a positive outcome. I’ve realized I need to stop being so damn afraid of everything and worrying so much about the future, I need to live in the moment and enjoy the days and times I have with the people I care about and be more carefree like I used to. I planned a little “date” for us on Saturday morning/early afternoon because we haven’t had very much one on one time at all since he started working. I’m going to pack lunches and drinks and take us to Powell Butte to enjoy the weather and each others company, and maybe take some photos while I’m up there. He doesn’t know the plan yet; I know it’s not a great surprise or anything, but I am looking forward to it. Anyway, I feel like the rough patch may finally be over and I just feel a lot of positive change heading this way. Anyway I love my friends to pieces and I really hope we will all see each other this weekend.. who am I kidding? We always do.

hate/love

when someone pretty much forces you to do something you don’t want to do but you need to do and you end up thanking them in the end